i'm having that as well..life blows.

((((((((((((((((((Beth))))))))))))) I stopped and said a prayer for you...Have added you to my prayer list...will be praying for you each morning! We WILL get you through this time!

    Thank YOU soooooo much for your love and kindness...I'm so very happy to have you back in my life..I missed you terribly!

    Know that you can always email me if you want to talk in private! I'm here and I love you!

    Praying that your week is FILLED with BLESSINGS and LOVE...Praying that you may feel His Love and Mine!

     Love you!,

       Jewel

(((((((((((((((((9Beth))))))))))))) it's soooooo good to see an update from you! I've missed you terribly!

    I pray that your day is FILLED with BLESSINGS!

   I love you!,

        Jewel

(((((((((((((((Beth)))))))))))) Heart Hugs! That is so very beautiful and moving!

   I miss you tons and love you even more!,

                 Jewel

((((((((((((((((9Beth))))))))))))) I'm still feeling very ill...But wanted to let you know how VERY MUCH I LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU!

  Happy Valentines Day!,

            Jewel

(((((((((((99Beth))))))))) Thank YOU soooo much for the note and for sharing with me what you are learning.

  I am feeling off today...But KNOW that I miss you and send you MUCH LOVE! Hope to hear from you soon!

   Love you!,

        Jewel

lol mee too!

im soo drained school on top of work isss uggg!!!

Lol I know right.

That or the most stupid thoughts come about when we are bored lol =]

Aww Thanks !! =D

ahh really!

yeahh idk where it came from i was mad bored

dearest wife, i'm terribly sorry i've been neglecting you and our marriage. i've just been really scattered lately and i cant seem to focus or anything that would be remotely productive to the world and life in general. i dont want a divorce dear, i just fail at being lively and writing back and things.

i love you too, i'll write you soon when my brain actucally can function on a normal human level that writes things that makes sense. i hope college doesnt continue to eat your soul. i love you uber muchly. i'll write soon.

dear beth,

i miss you terribly and i'm sorry that i havent emailed you back. i sort of tend to fail at life. howeverrr you need to e-mail me again and tell me whats going on in life because i'm not quite sure anymore. i love you loads.

of course i do darling. i'm sorry about the drinking and head stuff, thats quite unfortunate. as is life. mainly because i'm an anxious, insane, psychotic mess. oh well. love you loads.

Hahah it's ironic.

You can't appreciate Ghetto music because your too proper YET he's the one who live the life of luxury.

Maybe his parents paid for his ghetto e-bonics language lessons that made him the "wangsta" he is today.

I say a drive by is in order.

yes indeed darling, life does seem to be that way. i'm sorry that you're feeling that way i would give you a hug except there seems to be a large body of water between us which would mean our arms would have to be quite long to manage that one. you're not a psycho dear, i might be but you're not. panic attacks are slightly negative. i love you.

Dear Sister Beth,

  It was such a Blessing to hear from you! I've missed you tons..But you are always in my heart! I love you dear sister!

   How are you? What's going on in your life? How's school?

    I'm glad to know that God has used me to  inspire  you to spend more time with Him! I think that is the greatest priviledge we have!

   I hope that your day is filled with Blessings Dearone!

    I LOVE YOU!,

       Jewel

i think i shall mentally kick your professors so they give you a night off so you can write me and let me know whats going on with life dearest. you are my wife after all and i feel i should be informed of such things. i love you lots and lots as well hope things are happyful in life and such..or something. i dont know. love you!

(((((((((((((((((Beth))))))))))))) Beautifully written...Your talent amazed me!

   How are you?  What are you up to?

   I love you tons,

       Jewel

Dear Sister Beth,

  Thank YOU so much for your note, your support, your love, your wisdom.

   I believe that you are right..this is the first step to a better life! I am feeling Hopeful for the future!

   I love you tons!!!!!!!!!!!!!,

       Jewel 

LOVE YOU too!!

i would say loads its just bleh..i dont want to talk about things anymore. people are too exhausting..trying to get them to listen or understand..bleh whatever. i'm sorry about you having to walk to the train station in the pouring rain, you hopefully have not melted. i love you!

(((((((((((((Beth)))))))))))) Thank YOU for your encouragement..God has brought me to a new place this morning...My Joy is Back! Praises be to Him!

   I miss you and hope that we can talk soon.

   Beautiful writing...very poetic!

   I love you tons,

        Jewel

i adore you as well. you need to write me an e-mail and let me know how things are going. love you.

Beth! i miss you dearly.
we have lots to talk about
<3

((((((((((((((((Beth)))))))))))) I missed you so much and thought of you so often!  I missed our talks!

    Thank YOU for the Love, the prayers, the welcome back!

   This entry was beautifully written!

  I pray that things are well with you!

   I love you tons,

       Jewel

" it doesn't matter what mistakes you make so long as you can cover your tracks... mess can be cleaned up, secrets can be locked in cupboards and lies can be arranged, beds can always be re-made. "

this is so true. wow.

yeah well i was running out of examples. luke and lorelai seemed like a good option despite the fact that the 7th season of the show just ended.

i will write you an e-mail at some point..does the one you gave me at first still not work? because if so i need to find the other one and send it to there but i have no idea. flirting can be fun..until it spins you into a ridiculous amount of confusion and you drown. oh wait thats just me...

you have to write me before you start school too! although i start before you =( sad. bleh. not not not not not not not looking forward to going back to school. its going to suck. perhaps college will be rocking for you though and you can be happyful. unlike me cause thats not how i am...ever.

love you

Dear Precious Beth,

   I love you so very, very much!  Your notes, support , love and guidance mean the world to me.

   Thank YOU for always looking out for me and for wanting the best!

   The Lord has been so very good to me..I feel His Peace in all things right now..I'm going to appreciate it while it lasts!

   I love you Beth!,

      Jewel

Dear Sweet Sister Beth,

    How very much your note, your prayers and your love mean to me...I pray that YOU can always feel how very much I love you!

  You are a Gift and a Blessing to my heart, my mind, my soul, my spirit!

   With Much Love and Gratitude,

           Jewel

i LOVE you too dear.

congrats dear. perhaps you should come to college here so i have someone to talk to and be hereee.

loveeee you.

i agree. maybe we will be like that. but ohhh well.

it does feel like forever since we've talked. i love you and i miss you and i love you somemore as well. i'm sorry that life is crap at the moment. we should probably try to fix that. or something. i dont know.

i hope you're doing better. i love you.

don't feel bad I run from my mistakes too
but you know what?
my mistakes run way faster than me
=[ *le sigh*
hahah yes
we could drag ourselves
into a happy land of unicorns and rainbows
and eat candy all day
and stab our problems to death
with sharpened candy canes =DD
much ily<33 your way too
thank you =]

i miss you too. i just also have nothing worthwhile to say. i love youuu.

dear beth,

i miss you. and should probably write you an e-mail about life or update my diary or something. however i feel tired and gross and dont want to do anything. your writing is beautiful as always. perhaps one day you'll become a famous author and make millions..then maybe you'll finally find that cursed boat.

love you lots and lots and lots.

you are very amazing! God bless your talent and all of who you are....the things you write always makes me think deeper then normal. Its beautiful the talent that God has given you!!!

Love betz

i think your writing is pretty
and imagination rock
i can never like write things beautifully
it just goes from mind straight to fingers
so it always comes out sarcastic or jumbled
my favorite is the ending, "to be dragged by the hair to the reality of impossibility"
*le sigh* so true =[

i havent had a bath in ages
the tubs caulk job sucks
and what better place than to live in a fancy bathroom
all you need is like a fridge and your set
i mean we go to the bathroom everday, why not live in one
minus the spiders, i always spray them with hairspray or airfresher when i find them
or attempt to get them to swim down the drain
i cant smash them usually im afraid theyll like kill me?
cuz most of them jump =[
ive also never been in a jacuzzi, weirdddd
where were you that you found an imaculate bathroomm hahah

ily<33

((((((((((((((((((((((((SisterBeth))))))))))))))))))  Thank YOU so much for the word of Divine encouragment...for your prayers..for your sisterhood and your love...Having you on my side makes a world of difference.

    What you said about it now being between 'God and mom" -brought me so much comfort..It was just what I needed to hear! 

 Much Love and Gratitude,

         Jewel

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! YOU'RE HOME YOU'RE HOME YOU'RE HOME YOU'RE HOMEEEE!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED  

hah i'll stop yelling now =) but i'm sooooooo happy you're home. i've missed you like you would not believe. haha poor david its okay though because i'm not a psycho murderer or anything. and i'm sure he'd only have a problem with your wife if she were.

i loveeeee you.

hah...i love how you hate her for me. thats amazing. i'm not sure whats going on with them for sure though and its very confusing because other things people have said make me like hm...so are they going out or not? i have no idea.

it'll take you about 40 yrs to read my other entries because well..i have no life and i updated about a billion times. but you might forgive me because i was very bored and lonely without you.

i loveeeeeeee you.

hahah i did not mean to kill the stupid bat
i guess the frustration empowered me to hit it a little
erm. . .less than sensitively
mmmm waffles

i like french too
its prettahhh
i took french for like three years
and now I can barely remember anything besides
"vache" is cow and that "adam aime dormir" or something like that
hahahah it's very broken now

Thanks for your comment.

Take Care,
Erica.

ooo i love it, especially the rhyming bits hehe!
Can't believe you are going on holiday & leaving me. I'll have to deal with chav-infested Hadfield all alooone, tut. Hope you have lots of fun though :)
Love You
x

This is according to the mini Collins Gem French Dictionary you've actually said screw you instead of f*** you...oh well little difference.

Loving you x

(((((((((((((((Beth)))))))))))) Just a note to let you know that I am thinking of you!

 Thank YOU for being such a God-send in my life.  Thank YOU for giving me so much support through a difficult time.  Thank YOU for all of the love that you send my way!

  Much Love Always,

      Jewel

Dear Sister Beth,

   Thank YOU for the sweet note...for being in my corner..for picking me up when I am done...for cheering me on.  I appreciate and love you more than I can say.

    Wayne DIDN'T make an issue today about my being sick....which is a very good thing!  I would have gotten very mad if he had of. 

    I hope that your day is filled with Blessings!

    I love you!,

      Jewel

((((((((((((((9Beth))))))))))))) Thank YOu for your prayers...Your Love..Your concern...Your sharing...Your spiritual affirmations and guidance..thansk for cheering me on in my recovery! 

  I love you tons!,

        Jewel

i read this before.
i cant believe i didnt comment! UH
*slaps self in face*
it's so pretty. . .
and thought out
like uh dying omg
you are sucha  good writer
i like the ending, "Oh how it aches, la, la, la. Flatliner." <333333

and dont hate on my menopause. bettcchh.
jkjkjk ily

your wife is no longer suitably happy so i suppose we'll have to find some random person on the streets and they will be happy for both of us. iloveyoutoo. eye candy also tends to be a**h***-ish. like 99% of the time guys that are really, really attractive are a**h***s. i'm sorry that david's left =( i saw harry potter yesterday...it was slightly disappointing because they left so much out from what was in the book. but it was..interesting. i think i need to see it again. love you lotsss.

Defribulator, "CLEAR" BANG! Heartsong lives, we exist with melodies that harmonise unlike any other. Exactly two weeks (and two hours ahead might I add) and freedom is ours, no more waiting after. Sunny skies, sandy beaches, coldest of waters but our hearts will be all the warmth we need.

I live and breathe you, my song, my nightingale.

I love you x

You write beautifully. I'm just hoping it's not true. 'Cause that would be a bit sad.

Love and stuff
xxxx

((((((((((((((Beth)))))))))))) Beautiful! How much I relate.

  Love you tons,

       Jewel

bleh. he so completely doesnt. i dont deserve it. love you lots.

((((((((((((((((Beth)))))))))))) Thank YOU so much for the note and all of the prayers...they make such a difference in my life..It helps so very much to know that other's are praying for me...And your prayers are right on track with the situations that I am dealing with!

    I love you Beth and hope that you have a blessed day!,

                        Jewel

Once upon a time I was that "anything but me", yet here I stand today, opposition to the repugnance you speak of...intriguing.

Not only one that was saved, but two.

Yet again I realise that this is but an entry and we've spoken of how your mind can work.

Still we are together, and I love you so much x

hahaha

oh i do feel the vibes indeed

and nahh you dont need to get me the perfume. ill acquire it soon enough.

i didnt even get "crunk" i got "slightly tipsy" because i had work the next morning xD

"I always feel alone unless there's a boy in the room, looking at me. Pathetic but true, like me."

that's not pathetic. i hate being alone. i hate when people dont like me, hahaha as narcisistic as that sounds. i dont know im a very friendly person so i expect the happy friendly vibes back. who wouldn't love someone admiring them every second anyway? xD